Monday, January 02, 2006

i just cant stop myself from wanting to cry.
i need a quiet place for me to sit and cry my heart out.
im not feeling good, extremely no good.
trying so so hard to keep those tears from flowing out.
i just need someone who can truely understand what i am goin thru.
its just so so difficult.
only boss asked if im okie, cos im acting weird these days.
not even my close ones realise and ask if im okie.
im trying so god damn hard to be strong on the outside.

you were never there.
its just so difficult for you to understand me.
its just so difficult for you to be there for awhile.
its just so difficult for you to realise im not feeling good.
its just so difficult not to quarrel.
i know you wanna say, we quarrel and that's why you're nv here or i shun you away or im playing hard to get or im just so difficult. these are all excuses.
even when we didnt quarrel you didnt realise im not feeling good.
quarrelling with you only add on to me feeling bad.
you simply dont understand. nobody does anyway.
im closing my doors. nobody is gonna get in.
im already feeling lonely and left out.

anything just drop me an sms. pardon me for not answering calls and replying smses.
i just wan to be alone.

its a new year, and im so screwed up.
how nice to start a new year like that.
beginning of these few years just sucks for me. i hate it.
what else can i do other than accepting.
my life is in a total mess, im like a lost soul trying to figure the correct way out.
i need light and guidance. i need attention. i need silenceand peace. i need someone.